This past Sunday, I had one of those most glorious and luxurious of days. It started with breakfast in bed with my girlfriend brought to us by my sweet guy. Then he wandered off, and she and I were left with hours of time to fill with all of our luscious feminine energy.
Next up was a 90 minute Healing in Motion movement class, during which we got to embody different types of weather and did some mirroring movement exercises as well. This led to our bodies opening up, stretching, and relaxing...so landing outside on the back porch, lounging on the day bed in the sunshine was exactly the right next move!As the sun set and hunger set in, we rifled through the fridge and decided on old school grilled cheese sandwiches. As my girlfriend nudged me out of the kitchen, I breathed in the joy of being cared for and curled up on the couch, wrapped in my comfy, fuzzy blue blanket that reminds me of the Cookie Monster, and started scrolling through the top movies.
Immediately I knew what I wanted to watch - Encanto!
As I waited for the grilled cheese to toast, I turned on some music and this song came on first: Feel this Moment by Pitbull featuring Christina Aguilera
OMG! The best!! Commence living room dancing like no one is watching (while also being hyped up and reminded that this moment is it --- be present!).
Grilled cheeses in hand - we hit play. I missed the first few minutes as I was so blown away by how damn good that grilled cheese was .
Rewind. Restart. Now fully my five year old self - ready for a movie and yummy lunch.
The whoooooooole movie is amazing. But the scene that got both me and my girlfriend most in tears was when the sister, Luisa (played by Jessica Darrow) breaks into her song "Surface Pressure".
The lead into the song is her assuring her little sister Mirabel that, "I'm fine, of course I'm fine, why wouldn't I be fine!!??"
Sound familiar?
How often do you walk through life as the "strong one", unquestioning, pushing, doing what's demanded, and pushing way way way down the parts of you that are scared, feel worthless, anxious - constantly ready to blow?
Beloveds - take a breath. You cannot carry it all. You cannot do it all. You cannot do it perfectly.
And if you know this but don't know how to shift out of being a one-person show, please reach out and connect with me. I'd love to support you with that!
Here's to releasing the pressure,
If you were to take the pressure off yourself today, what's one thing you would do differently?
BOOK OF THE MONTH
In Down the Foggy Streets of My Mind, Kelliane Parker takes a scalpel to Dissociative Identity Disorder, trauma, stigma, survivorship, and the precarious endurance of the human heart. Her words are at turns haunting, charred, urgent, and beautifully alive. These poems carve resiliency into the silence of abuse until the word that rings loudest and clearest is healing. It's challenging and startling, a remembering, a fragmenting, and ultimately, a resurrection.
UPCOMING EVENTS
Relationships
Relationships have great significance for us all in terms of support, love, validation, a sense of belonging, and even a sense of "family." We will explore what happens around our needs and wants in relationships and what comes up around getting attached.