STEP TWO: “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
In social work we say: “Start from where the client is.” This applies to trust issues: if you feel you cannot trust enough to ask for help, then you have just identified your starting point. You will begin your journey from the place of “I don’t / can’t trust”.
During your personal process of recovery from trauma, by applying the Twelve Steps, you will learn the difference between belief and trust. A person can believe that a spiritual power exists; but that does not mean that he necessarily trusts that power.
It is true that traumatic events shake up your world, have you questioning the meaning of life, and this puts up barriers to trust. The goal of trusting a power greater than you can be an exacting taskmaster. As a result, many survivors are attempting to do much more to heal than what once was
When you apply Step Two to your own life, you can begin the process of developing a sense of trust for safe others. The essence of Step Two is coping with loss, including grieving for what is now gone and cannot be undone (perhaps you were once a very trusting person; innocent and vulnerable, and something or someone robbed that from you). It is also about learning to know a Power greater than yourself, as a loving, sustaining energy, and not as an authority figure that will harm or control you. Step Two is also about achieving some cognitive understanding that no matter what happened to you, a Power greater than yourself can restore you to sanity and integrity. Think about this for a moment. You are not to be blamed for your loss of trust, or any other reaction or formed beliefs. Actually, it was a perfect response in the context of what happened.
STEP THREE: “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”
You have worked Steps One and Two with a safe and trusted person – you have surrendered and you have demonstrated your willingness to try a new approach to your life experiences. When you admit your powerlessness over your traumatic history, you learn a comforting and critical truth: that you experienced certain painful life events that you absolutely could not have controlled. You were also not always in control of the coping patterns that have emerged. For some survivors, this can be a frightening and humbling experience.
In addition to your traumatic life experiences, there are numerous things in life you cannot control. Your willingness to view your experiences in a different light infuses you with a new sense of hope and relief. However, if you do not translate your hope into action, you will revert to old behaviors.
Another very common dysfunctional behavioral approach in dealing with people is trying to “take care of” or “fix” things, even if it is unsolicited, unnecessary or inappropriate. Some of you may resort to threatening others, manipulating, or bullying to get your way, even if these tactics are not necessarily used maliciously.
Your willingness to receive the care of a power greater than yourself will produce a life-changing transformational shift, because it opens you to new, broader possibilities. You participate in rather than try to control life. No one gets anything right without an appropriate amount of practice and patience, and this step is no different.
If you are anything like the average person, you will find that your openness will come and go. However, as long as you remain on your personal spiritual path, a little bit of faith is enough to bring you back. When you feel like giving up, remember that you are wired for growth and change (neo-plasticity). By remaining honest, open and willing (H.O.W), you will be in the best position to change any negative and false beliefs about your Higher Power, yourself, and other people.
Thank you so much for your participation up until this point! I am delighted to have had this opportunity! If you are interested in learning more about this process, please see my contact information below. Good luck on your healing journey, and trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
Author of: “Trauma and Transformation: A 12-Step Guide”
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